So I may or may not have a magazine coming to shoot my house in a month and I may or may not be remodeling my bathroom and I may or may not be scrambling to make it real real pretty real real quickly..
As if I needed to add one more thing to my list...wah wah wah
Anyways , I have loved the look of a textured or boarded wall...
So on my list of "to do's for the big day" I have decided to panel my walls...
Not like a tacky 70's ranch house, but more like an easy breezy beautiful old beach house
I have a plethora of lovely new clients here at AID and I wanna share each and every last detail with all of you, but I am keeping it cool and will share it bit by bit as things progress,
Like a tease....
anyways,
I am pretty sure the Interior Design gods that be have got my back because I keep getting the greatest clients EVER!!!
I mean, how is it possible that I can get beautiful, smart, funny, and style savvy clients back to back with not a bad one in the bunch??
Am I being punked?
One of my newest clients is pretty much perfect in every way so I have lovingly dubbed her
"Client Pretty Much Perfect"
We are starting off with her teen daughters bedrooms and so far we have made some great progress...
Here is what we have come up with so far and after its all done I am pretty sure I might just move myself right on in.
I am at a loss for words at how many times you lovers cease to amaze me.
After hearing all your sweet comments about my emotional pre-school post yesterday, I have come to the decision that we are going to try G on 2 half days of school to start and then maybe 2 full days after she likes it.
This will be so beneficial for her, and part of me has felt this way for a while, I just needed to hear it from my peers!
I am currently spread so thin that those two days of knowing she is in a fun place while I work will be such a welcome relief.
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Most of the times I try and keep it to myself or the Duck, but after the past few weeks I have had...I decided to share it with you all...mainly just because you all lift me up so much and seem to say the right things when I need it most!
The duck has been gone for 5 weeks now on tour and he still won't be home till the end of the month.
I am a full time working from home stay at home Mom.....
This means I work a normal 12-14 hour day and am a mommy 24 hours a day with a sitter who helps 2 days a week....and a hubby who will be gone for the majority of the rest of the year.
Recently lots of crazy huge opportunities have been coming my way and quite quickly landing on my lap. I am so excited and eager to make the next big jump in my career and future. However I am carrying around this giant Lump in my throat thinking about my baby.
You see...
When I first had G the plan was for me to be a stay at home Momma. For 8 months I was at home with my monkey day in and day out just the two of us bonding and being Mommy daughter. The duck was gone for a lot of these first months so I really had a lot of alone time with my thoughts. I was co-sleeping and breast feeding and basically a solo mama and needless to say I got a bit overwhelmed.
As much as I loved G, I didn't love the way I felt staying at home. I felt useless and like I was withering away with nothing more to talk about then poop, breast milk, and sleeping.. I needed to do something creative but I felt guilty for leaving my baby.
Because the duck was gone I didn't have a lot of support or many friends to talk to about how isolated I felt so I just decided that I was gonna get my ass back to work and never let G out of my sight for longer than a few hours.
I could make it work....I can do it all, right???
I would go to work and literally every two hours would get whoever was watching G to come to meet me at work so I could breast feed her. She wouldn't take a bottle ,so I was on a 2 hour time limit anywhere I went.
I grew to just accept that in order for me to have a career I would have to do both Mommy and work at the same time and do both 100%....
and here is where the emotional part comes in.
I have done my best to try and keep G at home with me, but work is overwhelming and G is getting frustrated with my obvious pre-occupation.
I am realizing that I cannot do it all AND have a happy baby if she is getting ignored. My first priority is to G as her Mommy and I only want whats best for her.
I say this because it may be time to put her in preschool and I am crying just typing this.
I have been scouring the Internet trying to find reasons why I should and reasons why I should not, but the general consensus seems to be, you should do what is best for your child.....
What is wrong with me?
I took G to an open house at one of the perspective schools we are looking at and she LOVED it...she talked about it for a week and kept asking if she was "going to go to skoo". You would think I would be happy to put her somewhere I know she will love being...but I am scared shitless.
I am a control freak by nature and the thought of not knowing her every move KILLS ME!
Who will hug her if she falls, who will understand that when she walks up to you on her tippy toes and says "woobeenook" that she wants to cuddle. Who will know that she is hungry or tired or just needs to chill??????
Seriously I am hysterically crying typing this..
Lovers, PLEASE give me your stories. Tell me it's gonna be OK or tell me I am a horrible Mother for even thinking about putting her in school before she is 3...or just tell me to take a bath and a xanax and get over it.
I don't know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry for the Monday bum out but I am just at a crossroads.
